A SUNDAY IN JANUARY, 1952
Nasset Sunday. 1952.
My darling Maj,
Thank you very much for your letter, it was so nice to get it at last, I was afraid something had happened since I didn’t hear, but its all right now. At last I’ve got a flag for you, I hope it’s what you want, it was the only kind I could get. Every day when I come home for lunch the first thing I asked was if there was a letter from you, and yesterday morning about 9 o’clock Mette phoned me up in the Kindergarten, just to tell me that your letter had arrived, so I hurried home. To-day we are all alone home as Olga has her week-end, so I didn’t get up till 2 o’clock it was wonderful not to have to get up early, Mette came up with breakfast to me, as she had to get up anyway because of Chris. It is funny how well he still remember you and talk about you. last week-end Karen and William was home from Aarhus, and they came over here Saturday afternoon to have tea with us, and we were playing some records, and Willian started dancing with me, so Chris came and pulled him away and said that he wasn’t to touch me only Maj was allowed to do that, so be still remember that, and you have a good guard to look after me. Well soon there will not be long time before you will know something about what you are to do, it must be nice for you, I hope in a way you will be able to go back to College again, as it means you will have a better chance later on, and for me it means you will stay in England, a very selfish though. My grandmother is here now this afternoon for coffie, but she is leaving about half past five again, so we will have the evening to ourselves, so I think I’ll go early to bed. I have got your picture up just beside my bed, and are often dreaming of you, funny I think of you so much, and every evening when I go to bed I imagine you there as well, it would be wonderfull if we were to-gether now, so many of my girlfriends get engaged and married now. Karen had her boyfriend with her home last week-end and she told her father that they wanted to get engaged at Christmas time, so now she is wondering what will happen as her father hasn’t said any thing yet. Mr Busch was here the other day to look at Chris to see if he was getting on all right and he asked me if I had seen Arvig (the name of Karen boyfriend) and as I said I had met him and thought he was very nice, Mr Busch said he thought he looked rather peculiar, but I do hope for Karens sake that he likes him. It would be nice if we were able to see each other every day as they are, last years at this time I was on my way to England I would like in a way to go o year back, it was a really wonderful autum that year, I don’t think I’ll ever forget it, and being together with you such a lot. I had a letter from Janne the other day, I think she is going to write to you one day so she said anyway, as she wanted to practice her english, I think she regret she was so shy of you when you were here, and didn’t take the chance of speaking this is the lot for this time I do hope I’ll here from you soon, I always feel so wonderfully happy when I have a letter from you, just ask Mette. She and Chris sends there love. All my love hugs and kisses from yours forever Toots, I do love you so very much darling and miss you. xxxxx ooooo.
January 30th, 1952
Nasset den 30-1-52.
My darling Maj,
Thank you very much for your letter which I got this morning, the parcel came too, but Laura has taken it to keep until today, so I don’t know anything about that yet. Am so glad, you secured to have had a good birthday, I was thinking of you the whole day, though I must admit it was rather funny thoughts, you see I went to bed Saturday afternoon with an awful cold and a high temperature, and Sunday and Monday, I couldn’t move because of an awful headache, I thought it would go to the sinus again, but it turned to bronchitis, and I’m coughing now like anything. This morning I’ve no temperature, but I get some absolut discusting stuff to take, but the doctor said I could get up on Friday but I mustn’t go out the first week or so, it’s awfull, and I’m so fed up lying in bed, though I have been asleep the most of the time. One thing I’m glad that you are not here, otherwise you would get it and it’s not a bit nice but it would be wonderful if you would have been able to come and see me. It was a nice picture of you, have you got a new shirt. Have you seen Gunnel lately I wrote to her some time ago but haven’t heard from her. Well I don’t quite know what to write, it stands still up there, but I wouldn’t disappoint you by not writing. Excuse the writing but it’s not so easy in bed. Will you give my love to everybody. I have not got Harri book, but left it on your bookshelf somewhere. Well I’ll stop now hope you don’t mind. I’ll write a long letter to you next time, I’ll be up that time too. Still I have not told you that I love you very much and are glad for the key. By the way what do you mean by saying you can’t be faithfull when your sexual urges demands expression, I should like to know please.
Well now all my love hugs and
Kisses from Lotte xxxxx
P.S. I don’t think it’s a good idea to write twice a week it will just make people wonder, you see I never get your letter before I come home for lunch at 12 and it might make Else wonder why I hear from you so often.
Does this letter sound very cold, I think so, but it is not meant to be, but I just don’t know what to write, please forgive me, I hope you will understand I do love you so very much.
February 15th, 1952
Nasset den 15-2-52.
My darling Maj,
Thank you very much for your card and letter, it was so nice to hear from you at last, I was very worried about you, and if something had happened to you. this is rearly a very difficult letter to write to you after the one I received, and I have been thinking a lot about it. Darling don’t you think it was because you were so very depressed that you want me to give you up. To tell you the truth, I was very disappointed over you, I though you could behave better, but I just can’t give you up it’s too late now to break just like that, can’t you see that Darling I don’t mind how you behave, how many girls you have, well I suppose in a way I do, but nothing you do matters as long as I know you love me, and will come back to me in the end. Please go on writing to me as you always have, and if you feel you don’t want me anymore, though I do think you want me, and need me too (to be very modest) can’t we talk it over in the summer when you come. It is very difficult to write about, and there are so many things I want to say to you and talk over with you, and I know, I’m not very good at expressing myself in writing but I hope you understand it. I think it’s your feeling that has run off with you sensible part, you used to be able to see when you got too dramatic over things, well try and do that no too, do cheer up, the world is not as bad as you think it is. Darling try if you can to live better now, it’s not good for you as you are carrying on, and I know you can if you just make an effort, as I have told you before you are not all the things you call yourself, but so very very nice and so very understanding, what you have meant to me I just can’t tell you it is so much, and I’ll feel absolutely lost without you, everybody. I am sure most go through what we are through now, it’s just one of those things to show what people are made of, and you can’t and must not give up so early. Darling I love you, you must understand that now, it is difficult for me too, but please don’t make it more difficult for me, but if there ever should be anything, just write it to me and I’ll try to make you happy again. I have made myself very hard not to miss you too much, but now I just can’t help crying, I do wish you were here, or rather I was in Cambridge. Darling I have not answered your letter properly, but I’ll do that next time as it is very late now, but I just couldn’t help answering you letter at once. Darling write to me very soon again please will you, and try and show everybody and yourself that you don’t give up so quickly.
All my love hugs and kisses yours
March 10th, 1952
Horsens d. 10-3-52.
My darling Maj,
I am so sorry that it is so long ago you have heard from me, but as I told you in the card my grandfather was very ill and he died just a week ago. It was awful, he has always been so good to us and spoild us and I do miss him now, though he has been ill since Christmas and could not remember much. All my sisters was here for the funeral and went away again yesterday and it first now everything is in order again. My grandfather was in bed and unconscious for a week and the doctor expected him to die any time so my grandmothers nerves is very bad at the moment. They have been married for 54 years so it must be awful for her not to have him any more and I am staying with her for a couple of days to try and cheer her up and not to feel to lonely. I hope you are not cross or annoyed with me darling, but you will understand wont you I was very glad for your last letter, and I don’t think I am nearly so jealous now, as I was before, fancy me being jealous I thought I never could be, but I can I understand you now, it is not at all nice. Well I better see if there is anything in your letter to answerd. I still can say I have been faithful to you, but as I have said before I don’t mind you going out with girls, I know you think of me and love me, darling I love you so much to and have been thinking a lot about you and what you were thinking not to hear a word from me you have made everything clear to me, I know what type you are, but till when I am there you prefer to sit in at night, I know it is something different and it is not said, to blame you for anything you are doing. I am not clever as you says, but I think now I know how to make you understand me. I would like you to be frank with me still if you want to, and I’ll be frank with you if you want me to. I know it’s no good being an only child, but as you don’t want six, we must find out what to do about that question later. Honestly I don’t understand the French, perhaps I ought to. I wonder how I’ll do in France, but I suppose it will be all right I hope so at least.
I don’t quite know what to do about you and a job in the summer, I thing you have to have a permission to work here in Denmark, but can’t you say something more about it so I know what to do about it, by the way I thought you were going to Findland too for the Olympic games. I have only got a month holiday, and I think that the forghtnight I am spending in Copenhagen with my mother, but if you could come to Horsens just and then to Copenhagen it would be wonderful I would love to show you Copenhagen, well now you can think of all this, and then write what you have made up your mind to any way there is still some time to go, wish there wasn’t. I don’t want the duffle coat, I don’t need it now as I have got another sports jacket instead. Well darling I have not got anything much to tell you more but I hope soon to hear from you, that you are not cross. Give my love to everybody, and to yourself ,
All my love hugs and kisses from yours forever
March 24th, 1952
Nasset den 24-3-52.
My darling Maj,
Thank you very much for your letter, it was so nice to hear from you, it seemed so long since I heard from you last, but I know it was all my fault, for not waiting. You want to know what type you are, I can’t explain it just like that, you know, I’m not good at explaining those sort of things, though you say, just go on with it, you are just as I like you to be that all but still I don’t suppose you are satisfied with that explanation, you have to be. It is a very nice of you to tell me all what you are doing, I wish very often though that I was in Cambridge. It’s all righ everything even Kate, but I suppose she is glad, at last she got you to kiss her. Well I must tell you I’ve been to the pictures with a shool friend of mine, but that noting hes just nice and only a friend, and no kissing. Saturday I went up to Aarhus, a town north of Hersens, to visit Karen, I have told you of her before and she is studying at the university there, and they had a big party. We went round the town to the different pups and restaurant, nice and not so nice places, and we got all very happy mostly on beer. Someone kissed me that night, I could just not help it, though uptill then I was very proud of I had not been kissed by anyone since you. darling hope you don’t mind.
I’m very sorry Miss Smythe has died do you know what Gunnel is doing now, I suppose she is going back to Sweden, and what is Kate doing now? Gunnel has not written to me at all. About that job of yours, it any difficult because you have to have a permit to work here I can’t quite make out what to do about it. I wish it wasn’t another country, and it too that you wanted to teach english and it’s in the school holidays. I don’t know what you can get otherwise, but I’ll still try to find out.
How long time are you going to stay at howestoft (?) this time just so I know where to write, but though there might be quiet there I think you can do a lot of work. You must pass your examen well this time I did not think your letter was cold at all, mine is too, but it’s not easy to write warm letters all the time, as long as I hear from you it’s all right. I have not had any photos taken of me, but maybe at Easter some will be taken, any way if any is taken I’ll send them to you. next week I’m going to have my teeth done, I scared of what it is going to look like all right I hope, they look even darker now. All my sisters is coming here for Easter, it’s going to be very nice Janne the one it is taller than me now, I think I’m going to be the smallest of them all. Otherwise everything is going all right and I’m very happy in the kindergarten. The first of April we are going to have children as the ones we are having now is going to shool. Well darling I don’t think really there is anything more to tell you, because we have not been doing much lately because of my grandfather. I do wish I was with you now wouldn’t that be nice, I feel like getting away from here just for a while, though I’m being spoilt in all ways of my parents. I must start on my French now, I don’t like French, it’s so very difficult, but I suppose it will come after some time when I first come to France. Well darling stop for the present, I hope to hear from you soon.
All my love hugs and kisses yours
P.S. I do hope you don’t think this is a cold letter too, it’s not ment to be, you know that don’t you?
April 8th, 1952
Nasset den 8-4-52.
My darling Maj,
Thank you for your letter, I must say you are kind sometimes. Do you think I’ll ever lie to you, as far as I remember I have never done it, but of course I can be wrong, anyway I would never do it in a cheap way as you say. The explanation to that letter is that I posted it out here and it was not collected before the next day.
About your question: Yes! But just one thing; I want to here about you too. You promised me to be so and so good and faithfull, and what have come out of it. Do you think its very encouraging for me to hear about all that, just think of it. Now you can say I was unfaithfull too I know, that was one kiss and long time after you started. If you don’t want to come this summer don’t, you know what I think of it and I have tried to get a job for you, but it’s up to you if you want to see me.
I met Karen Haraibo, you know the Horsens girl in Cambridge she came home a forthnight ago and her friend from Emmanuel has been here a week, it was very nice to see her again and we had a long talk.
Well if you are not to busy playing hockey, it will be nice to hear from you soon.
All my love hugs and kisses
May 8th, 1952
My darling Maj,
Thank you very much for your letter, it was so very nice to hear from you. It was rather a lot of questions you ask about the summer but I have talked with Else about it. I have my holiday fro the 1st of July and you say you are going to that work camp on the 5th. We are planning a trip to Germany with my father, Else and the four of us, are starting the 5th so if you could come here the 30th of June or 1st of July and stay till the 5th it would be wonderful. We are able to put you up for those days, Else said if you would like to, I honestly don’t know where you are going to be because my two little sisters will be here too, but I am sure we will manage all right, if you don’t mind about it, I think you are going to sleep with my brother by any way we’ll find out, I don’t think it’s any good to offer you to sleep with me. About the suitcase, couldn’t your friend, who is that, send it from Esbjerg to Horsens and I’ll pick it up here, as it impossible for me to get it in Esbjerg, but if the other thing could be arranged just let me know and I’ll get it for you. About France nothing at all is fixed just so I can’t tell you anything about that, but I think I am going in the middle of August and my father and Else are driving me down and will spend one or two days with me in Paris. I am going to see my mother too and I think from the 27th of July and about a faurghtnight (I know it’s the wrong spelling but I don’t quite know how) because its my grandmother birthday the 26 and I have to be home for that. So there you see I hope it will be all right by you I know it’s not long time we will see each other but if it is all right by you, everything will be wonderful and we might meet in France I hope sometime, maybe in the Christmas. Oh darling it will be so nice to have you here I hope I’ll be able to show you lot of things, and have a wonderful time.
About those other silly questions about the lipstick I thought you were just teasing, but it’s the same one as I used in England I can’t remember the others and I am too lazy to get your last letter as I am writing in bed, for you to get the letter as quick as possible, we have been playing bridge all evening so I had no time to write them. By the way the lighter is all right, but I seems to be filling it all the time, maybe I smoke too much now.
I have to confess that I was out to a dance last Saturday with a friend and flirted rather a lot with him and he took me home which took time and have been to the pictures with him too, but I don’t mean anything with it and he doesn’t either, it was just the air, hope you forgive me, I just felt like it and there we were, but there is only one for me, you know that. By the way we have to be careful if you are coming, you will won’t you, though it might be who shoves most, but don’t say anything. Well I must write to Karen one day and the Crombies too its longtime since I’ve written to them, how is it with all Karen’s boyfriends by the way. Well darling I think I better get some sleep now I must up early tomorrow, I don’t like at all to get up but now I have to you are very lucky you can get up so late, but on Sundays I sleep til 12 o’clock. I’ll try to get pyssy’s address for Dhiren, but I haven’t seen anything to her at all, but I know lots of people who know her address so I’ll get it for next time I write. I hope to hear soon from you what you think to all this and I’ll stop now with all my love, huge and kisses from
P.S. I just feel like a goodnight kiss and to hear you say “Sweet dreams”
June 16th, 1952
Horsens den 19-6-52.
My darling Maj,
Thank you very much for your letter, I am so sorry that you failed, oh darling why did you fail, but still there is nothing to do about that. Of course I want you to come still darling and specially now, can’t you still come on the 30th I have been counting the days so please still try to come. We are all set for having you and you just have to send me a postcard saying what you do. Oh I do hope you will come, my two little sisters will be here too so it will be lots of fun, and we have found out now where everyone is going to stay, so you see you must come. Do you know anything about what you will do now or don’t you have any plans. By the way darling I was expecting to hear from you, and I could not understand why is was so long since I had a word from you. I don’t know how it has happen, I am sorry to say as the time went on without a word I was too stubborn to write, sorry darling I know I was silly. Have you got the book I send you? sorry about the paper and writing but I am writing in the kindergarten with all the children screaming and asking silly question around me. I have them alone now in the mornings from 645 til 8, but at the moment there is only about 15 so I can manage to write at the same time. Darling I still love you very very much and I just wouldn’t know what to do without you, and I know I just don’t like to look into the future the only thing I thinking of is you coming soon. Darling if you come there is only about 8 days left. We are then leaving for our trip for Germany the 8th of July, and after that I don’t know what will happen but I think I am going to Copenhagen on the 27th July. Well darling I just wanted this to reach you as quickly as possible so you could still make your plans, so I’ll stop for this time and do write to me again as quickly as possible darling. Sorry I think I have repeated myself many time but you know how I am early in the morning at least you ought to know.
Well darling hoping to see you very soon,
All my love hugs and kisses
I love you too.
July 4th, 1952
Nasset den 4-7-52.
My darling Maj,
Thank you very much for your letter I had to-day. I’m so sorry about that there could not be anything of you coming, but I glad you understand. I sorry about your father I hope it’s not anything serious, and I hope you don’t have to leave in a rush, I would so like to see you again before you leave darling. I miss you so much. It must be awful for you not to have anything to do, I know it was awful for me, before I stated the kindergarten again. I don’t quite understand that you are going to Paris I though you weren’t going, not to hurt the girl. Do you remember the pictures taken in the kindergarten I saw to-day and they are quite good, I will try and get a copy for you when I write to Hyodis, the girl that took them, but she is living in Eisberg now. I was going to a University ball in Aarhus to-night, but I said no thank you, because I did not feel like going there without you, it just would not be the same remembering all the balls we went to together. I have now started my French again amasing how much I’ve already forgotten, but I hope it will come again after some time. My father and Else is leaving on Saturday, it must be nice for them, my father needs this holiday very much, he is very tired at the moment. Darling I hope you are not cross with me for the things about your coming, you must now how much I wanted you to be here again, but I had a feeling that you were rather cheesed about it, I sorry if that’s the case, I did say something about it to Else, but she made no comments. Ulla asked to you to-day I went up there this evening to see Lone being bathed, and she said she would hope she would see you again some other time, that is nice I think. Mette sends you her love, she is doing very well as Chris’s nurse, and a hard job it is too, as he is getting more and more naughty, he need a good hand spank, but Else does not approve of spanking. Now don’t laugh, but we are all on the slimming diet again, I put on nearly everything I lost last time at my mother, as she gave us all out favorit thing to eat, and my grandmother stuffed us with chocolate. What time are you leaving to Scotland, and are you staying long, if there is any change in you adress will you let me now darling. I do miss you so much darling and feel so awfully lost without you, it’s awful not to be able to see you more than I do. I wish we were going to see each other just as much as last year, in a way I wish it was last year now, but in an other it’s a good thing one year has gone already and the others I hope will go quickly so I can be with you always so we don’t have to do this letter writing. I always miss you so when I here from you, but please darling write soon again I love you so much.
All my love, hugs and kisses yours forever xxxxx ooooo Toots.
July 16th, 1952
Nasset den 16-7-52.
My darling Maj,
Thank you verymuch for your two letters, I get when I returned yesterday from Germany. Oh it was so wonderful to hear from you I do miss you awfully too darling. You wanted to know what they thought of you. they likes you very much and Else said in a talk she had with Ulla you remember Else’s sister that she would gladly let you stay for half a year, and that is a great compliment for you, but you were really nice too I think I’m so happy they liked you, so you see darling you are welcome any time again. I have not said anything about you coming again what is all that about. It would be wonderful if you could, I never seemed to have missed you so much as this time, but I think that every time we part, so I must be more and more fond of you, darling I do love you so very very much, it might have seemed to you that I was cold, but I was not feeling cold at all, I was just afraid of showing my feelings too much, and I know if I started I would not be able to stop myself. Darling I do wish we did not have to wait such a long time, but it will be all right, I know I can wait as long as it is necessary now. I have been thinking a lot about you since you went it was awful at the station. We had a wonderfull trip in Germany, but we are all rather tired now, there so many things to see and hear about but we had a nice time and fine weather. Janne and Viller is going on Monday but Mette and I are first leaving for Copenhagen the 27 I think on about that date, as we have to be here for my grandmothers birthday the 26. She will be rather lonely that day as she will miss my grandfather after all it is not so long since he died though it seems long time ago. I hope you are having a good time in Stockholm, have you met all your society friends? If you see Dhrien give him my love Darling you will write to me soon and tell me about your plans, I am sure you will be able to stay here again, anyway I can ask when I know definitely what you will be doing, but if you can’t make it, it will be all right though I would look very much forward to see you again and now Janne and Viller’s gone there will be plenty of room for you and you have shown yourself to be very help full with the washing up. Darling I had a told of things to tell you to but I just get stuck when I write. Well darling I’ll stop now, do write to me soon and tell me about your plans.
All my love, hugs and kisses from yours
P.S. Mette sends her love, sorry about the awful writing but I’m going to bed now and I feel awfully sleepy and can’t write streat, but I was afraid of this letter missed you
Love again and always
July 18th, 1952
Nasset den 18-7-52
My darling Maj,
Thank you very much for your letter, I got this morning. It was so nice to hear from you. You wrote that you would be coming again and I told Else about it and we had quite a talk about it as she wanted you to come and stay here, but as the her aunt is dying and they might have to go to Copenhagen, she was thinking about the gossip in town, we talk with Ulla about it too and she said she would not think of that at all, if people wanted to talk they would have done it already, so there you see, we are expecting you, Darling it will be wonderful to have you here again. I hope you understand Elses point of veiw and don’t misunderstand her, but I could understand on her, that she was quite keen on having you here again. You are coming to Copenhagen on Tuesday I understand and won’t you then be able to come streat here. You can try to phone Hotel d’Angleterre adress: Kongens Wytow and ask if my father and Else are staying there, you see if this aunt of Elses dies they will go and stay there and you can then have a lift till Horsens, otherwise you just come. Please send me a message when you are coming by, if you don’t meet my parents. I mean in any case when you will be able to be here, for I will know, if they are going that you will return with them, but otherwise I will come and collect you at the station. Mette and I are leaving in the morning the 28 for Copenhagen and I understand that you then will go on to England. Try to come Tuesday evening here so we will have as long as possible together, oh it will be wonderful I can hardly wait till I see you again I do hope I have explained everything all right, but any way you understand I am loving to see you as soon as possible. It is my grandmother birthday on the Saturday 26 and we are going the to have the whole family here on Sunday so you will have to help as Hans is having her holiday, but Else said she knew you were an excellent nurse and waiter, and was looking forward to your help. By the way I send you a letter yesterday to the bank adress, have you got that. Well darling write again to me and say when you are coming, quickly as there are not much time to give of. Sorry this has to go in a rush as my father is taking the letter to town to have it send of as early as possible.
Most love, hugs and kisses and seeing you soon
yours always Toots
PS. Give my love to Margaretha.
Love from everybody here to you. Mette is very glad as well that you are coming.
July 31st, 1952
My darling Maj,
Well I suppose by now you are well in England. Mette and I have been thinking about you the whole time and been talking how far you were now and so on. Oh darling it was awfull to see you off at the station and I do miss you so very much. I feel so lost and keep on thinking of you and what we would have been doing if you’d been here as well. Mette was very nice to me and said it would be all right. When we went into the station, Else had said to Mette, “They are very much in love” so Mette said she did not know so Else said “Oh but I know.” And then Else had talk about what kind of job you were going to have and how everything was going after some time and we had plenty of time to think about things before we decided anything. So I think after this she is not absolutely against the thought of us marrying. It is really wonderful, that makes it much eaysier to take the long waiting when it seems to turn up right in the end, darling we must make it now you were so nice this time and I thought we really had a wonder full time it just went too quickly and now it seems years ago since I have seen you though it was only yesterday. I hope it was not too boring for you all the time you had in Esbjerg. Mette and Janne sends their love to you and Mette said “remember to tell my brother in law about those earring for my birthday the 28 of September.” My mother is very cold in her behavior to me and talk to the other three the whole time I have tried to be nice and you know say nice things to her but I don’t think it will help much, but it doesn’t matter nearly for it’s only for these three week, but its funny I don’t feel she is like a mother to me at all, but she is trying to say things to hurt me or neglecting me, but is just make me be even more thank full to my father, well anyhow I’ll see how it is when some more time has gone. I’m sorry about the writing, but I’m sitting in bed now. I’ll be looking very much forward to hear from you and hear how everything has turned out. Darling, I wish I could have gone with you to England now, and I am loning to have your arms around me again. I miss you and I just can’t think streat yet about you and that I won’t see you for some time, but it won’t be for long will it darling. I do hope you will be able to stay in England. It seems so far away, but India that will even be worse to have you all that long away, but of course if your chances are better there, it is just something I’ll have to get used to. Darling I love you so very much it would be wonderfull if I could be with you now and go to sleep with my head on your arm, you know I just fit in there very well and it is very comfortable, is it for you as well? Fonne (?) and I sleep together and she has already gone to sleep. We are doing nothing but sleep and eat all day long. I slept till 11 o’clock this morning, it was wonderfull, but I miss my late nights, though we go late to bed, I missed that little talk of ours last night.
Well darling I’ll stop for this time but you’ll hear soon again. It is getting more and more expensive to send letters to England now.
All my love, hugs and kisses from yours forever
I love you very very much.
August 2nd, 1952
Blokhuset den 2-8-52
My darling Maj,
Thank you very much for your two letters, they both arrives at the same time this morning. It must have been awfull for you too arrive in Cambridge and no mail at all but I hope you have got it now, isn’t Raymond still staying at Carlos flat. Any way you should have given the College one of your adresses where you have been this summer. Darling I wish I was in Cambridge as well now, it would be fun if we could have gone off as long as you want me too. I’m leading a very lazy life, doing nothing, it is going a little better with my mother now, and that nice, because it’s awfull to feel uncomfortable and un wanted the whole time. To morrow morning we start off to Sweden. We are going to Göteberg and staying around there for a couple of days to see what there is to see, you have been there havn’t you darling. We are then returning here again on thursday so it is just a small trip. Yesterday morning the thee girls and my mother we went to a big new restaurant called “Kystens Perle” with three friends we have here. They are training as officers at Kronberg you know the big Hamlet castle. We had a nice time, you don’t have to feel anything for I did not do anything at all we just had a nice time. I told Mette to be carefull because she is very fond of one of them and he does not notice her at all, and she useualy show too much, but she ran off with another and I think she had a grand time. It was very good for her because it is not very often she has an opportunity to go out with boys together. I do hope you will be able to find the right job, I am sure you will do well then, it is just the beginning that is so difficult, but not everything can be easy. I am thinking a lot about you, I suppose your uncle will soon arrive so he will help to clear things a bit up, you should not feel too depressed you know everyone thinks you don’t worry too much so you’ll have to think that as well. I wish I could help you, but I am afraid it is a very little I can do for you, you know I love you very very much and will work for you. Next saturday I am going to Tivoli with the one you know in Hasens that I talked to on the street when I met you at the station. I do hope you don’t mind. I said yes because I wanted to see how I could behave myself. We are going four of us, and I am determined to stick to my ord. of ourse if you mind me going at all you just have to say and I’ll tell you everything afterwards, and I’ll the whole time remember that I am engaged it it is far more difficult when noone knows, but I think it is just good to try to control one self. My mother and all four of us are going to the pictures to night to see a Kipling film from India I don’t know what it is call in english, bit it is about three soldiers and with David Niven, Steward Grandu and Walther Pigon. I’ll have to go and fetch the car now, so I’ll stop for this time, I’ll write as soon as I hear from you again, please write soon, so I’ll know at a bit about what you will be doing. Mette famne and Viller sends their love to you. Most love hugs and kisses from yours for ever Toots.
August 8th, 1952
Thank you so very much for your three letters, you are very good a writing, I feel quite ashamed of myself not writing more, but it was not so easy in Sweden. I hope you got the postcard before you left England. It was so wonderful last night when we returned to have your two letters waiting for me, and the third I got this morning. Oh darling I do miss you so very very much and it is even worse when I hear from you I long to be with you again, but one thing is good, we are two about it. I’m so happy you got the job in France, everything seems better now doesn’t it, I’m sure you will do well, and I think all your plans are wonderfull, oh darling I am sure we are going to make it, I don’t think there could be anyone as happy as I am now, I love you so much darling and I think we are going to have the most wonderful time to-gether, I’ll do my very best to make you happy, but one thing darling, I would liketo have my examen before we marry, I know it will mean two more years, but don’t you think that will be the best, even though we have to wait longer. By the way, who are the three who think we are engaged? We had a wonderful time in Sweden and when around and saw different places. We stayed one day in Goteborg and went shopping, and bought all sorts of things. I bough a new dress a dark blue one and a nylon slip. In the evening we went to the pictures and saw “Gone with the wind” it was a wonderful film and I liked it very much though it was rather tiring to sit there so long. Janne was very cross with you last night as I was reading your letters and it took quite a time and she could not go to sleep because of the light and she kept on putting it off. It is not so good about your parent not knowing anything about your results of the examen but I hope it will turn out all right for you, don’t you think they will understand you, I think it is good you have got a month now to arrange everything, that might get you time to clear up every thing. I wish I had been in Cambridge with you, it could have been awful fun, I know you don’t like me going to Tivoli, but I think it will be the best to do, and I promise you, and I stick to the promise that I won’t do anything and that I’ll remain faithful to you, I won’t let any one kiss me, as I want to keep your last kiss. He want me to go out with him on Sunday as well, but I have said no. On Tuesday I am going to lunch with the sister to the one I am going to in Paris to get everything arranged about my job, as they want to see what I am like before I get the job. I hope it will turn out right. I must say I am a bit nervous about it, but as Else wrote to me she thought it would be all right. I should just be naturel except for my homely table-manners. I don’t think they are too awful though you always used to nag me about them too. It will be nice too to know quite what the job will be like, because now I don’t know so very much about it. It would be nice if I was able to have a holiday and come and see you in England some time it is not so difficult from Paris as from Denmark and after all I have six pound in England to live for you, so I hope, remember. I think my father has forgotten them but don’t worry I have not. Darling I would give anything to be with you now, I could never get tired of your company, though could you not try not to tease me so much, I don’t think you will be able to, but I do want a hoad (6) bed no matter what you say, I think I’ll get it myself and if you want to sleep with me you’ll just have to sleep in it. Sorry about the writing but I just furry to get it with the post now at 6 o’clock. Do write and tell me all about when you are doing. Mette and Janne if fighting away here on the floor and making an awful noise, they both send you there love. Can’t you send me the photograph then I can send them back to you again, I want to see what they are like. Well darling I’ll stop for this time now, and hope to hear from you soon again, yet I don’t know anything about Belgium and when I’m going home from here I know anything. All my love, hug and kisses from yours forever Toots
P.S. My mother has got a Ronson just like mine so I want mine ingraved soon so they won’t get mixed. I love you so very much, can’t you just come here five minutes to give me a kiss. Love Toots xxxxx
August 13th, 1952
Wy Strandvej II
My darling Maj,
Thank you very much for your letter I got this evening. It was so nice to hear from you. I’m very surprised that you did not go to France, but I suppose you know, what will be the best. I send a letter to you to the French adress, I don’t know what will happen to that I’m leaving here on Tuesday the 19 and we are then going home, yet I don’t know anything about Belgium. You need not worry at all about the day in Tivoli. We were five all together and I found out that I did not wanted at all to be kissed by him, so I still have your kiss. It wasn’t very difficult for me to be faithful, because I wanted to, and because I only love you and always only will love you, oh darling I will be faithful to you, I so want to, and I’ll try to be as much can, I know you are trying as well, so that makes it far more easier for me. Tuesday I went to that lunch with the sister of the one I’m going to in France and be said it would be all right, when she had asked all the questions so anyway now I’m going of to Paris for a year from the beginning of January. About those firms and things you asked me about, I don’t quite know how to find out about it, but I have looked in the telefon (what is that called you know the book with numbers?) and they give some under India, but not under Pakistan. I don’t know what it is but I’ll give you those adreses:
Indian Oil Company A/S.
Rosensornsalle II. Kobenhavn V.
India Tyre and Rubber Co. Ltd
Dahlerupsgade I. Kobenhavn V.
There is not any others. I don’t know if the konsulat is any help that is Indisk General konsulat.
Kronprinsessegade 36 Kbh. K.
The name of the Gen. kons is B. Strand. I don’t know if it is any help to you darling I’ll see what I can do later on. I hope you will be able to find something soon. Havn’t you heard from your parents yet? Do you really think it’s best to go back to India to find something. It will just be awful to know you are so far away, England is bad enough oh Darling why do you have to be so far away, I wish everything was not so difficult. Darling miss you so very very much to-night and feel so depressed and low down I don’t know why, maybe it’s just a bad period, and then you have to go so far away I wish I could go with you at once, but that just would not be possible. It will be wonderful when we don’t have to write letters any more but four year is such a long time though I keep on telling myself its not very much and will go very quickly, but after all it’s only a foughtnight since you left and it seems ages ago since I saw you last. Darling do you mind very much if I stop now because it’s very late, but I just wanted to write to you. Janne has promised to post it to-morrow morning before she goes to shool. I’ll write very soon to youagain my darling, I don’t know if there is time for you to write to here any more, I think there will be depends when you get this letter. We leave Tuesday afternoon. Janne and Mette and Viller sends there love. Janne has made up her mind to talk a lot with you when she see you again, I hope very soon she said, so do I darling. All my love hugs and kisses yours forever
I miss you very much and love you very very much too.
P.S. Poor Janne I use all her notepaper.
August 20th, 1952
Nasset den 20-8-52.
My darling Maj,
Thank you very much for your letter, it was so nice to hear from you, and thank you very much for the pictures, they were nice though I look awful, can I keep them, or do you want them back again? I’m sorry I did not reply immediatly (I can’t spell that) but I for your letter the day before we left from Espergarde, and there has not been any time before now. My mother was rather sorry to see us leave again, I might not see her now for two years and she was sorry about that. It was nice to be back home again but I must say I miss you here, but well that just can’t be helped. Else was very interested in what you were doing and asked me to give you her regards and thanks for your letter. If you have send any more letters to my mothers adress, just tell me as I want to know, remember last year when I did not get your last card from Paris, and I never know what can happen to any letters. I have not just your photo up, I just have not the courage to do so, supposing they ask if you’ve got some of me like that. I’ll rather wait if you don’t mind darling. I don’t mind at all about that italien girl, it’s all right I trust you, and nothing you do now could change anything in my feeling about you. Oh do I hope you don’t have to go to India darling, but if you think it’s the best I won’t say anything I’ll always wait for you, you know that, I could not imagine to many anybody but you now, I don’t think I could love anybody but you. you asked me about Erik, you know the boy here in Hersens, kissed me when I returned from Germany, well he did, but I can promise you, that he is not going to do it again, he tried in Tivoli, but I would not let him as I told you before, and I just could and would not like anyone to kiss me, but you, I think now that I have enough will not to let the feelings take me away in any situations, I found out that I just had to think of you and I was all sober again, you know what I mean don’t you darling, I do wish we were able to see more of each other, but I do feel properly engaged to you now, quite an ethadenany (?) feeling you know. I don’t know anything about when I’m leaving from here maybe I’ll have to stay here for another month, but any way I’ll let you know as soon as I know something myself. Do you know anything of your plans. I’m sorry I won’t be able to post this before tomorrow as it is very late, we have had guests to-night, but I wanted to just write to you before going to bed. Give my love to everybody and to you my darling. All my love hugs and kisses from yours forever Toots xxxxx ooooo
P.S. Olga sends her love to you and so do Mette.
P.P.S. Chris is after talking about you. I don’t know about talking to Ulla, I’ll have to see the situation to do so. Otherwise it might seem odd, don’t you think so. I love you so much darling.
August 28th, 1952
Nasset den 28-8-52
My darling Maj,
Thank you so very much for your letter, it was nice to hear from you again. You must feel awfully lonly by now, with no one around. Darling there is just one thing and that is about you getting a job here in Denmark. I honestly don’t think it’s a good idea. Please darling don’t misunderstand me you know how much I would like to have you here and be able to see you now and again, but you see it will start an awful lot of talk, and as my father and Else is not home for a month it will be even worse and I don’t think they would like it either I might, but at the moment nothing are returning to-morrow morning, so we have had this day in peace. You wrote about all your dreams and things, but darling you need not worry at all I will be faith full to you. I have told you before, but I don’t think you are quite sure that I will isn’t that what is the matter, I don’t know what to do or say to convince you that I want and will be faithfull to you please believe me darling, when I know you believe me it's easier too. I must say I was very amused about Raymond and Inye. I would not have thought that, but most people are always different to what one think. I wonder if Raymond has told her anything about us staying there at Christmas, then she bound to think the same thing of about us. By the way do you know if Karen is still staying in Cambridge at the Crombies? Oh darling I miss you, it would have been wonderful if you had been here to-day when every body is out of the way, we could have had a wonderful time. Do you realise we’ve soon been engaged for a year, amazing isn’t it. After all now it does not not seem such a long time. Well I don’t think I have much more to tell you now, having such a dull time, so I think I’ll stop so I can just this to the 8 o’clock post. Give my love to every body.
Most love hugs and kisses from yours forever Toots.
I love you very very much.
P.S. Have you heard anything new about job, and have you heard from those Danish firms?
September 11th, 1952
Nasset den 11-9-52
My darling Maj,
Thank you very much for your letter. I glad you are feeling a bit better now. It wont be long now before you will be able to start doing something, and I’m sure that will make everything better. I’ve been in bed for two days with a cold, it started going towards my sinus, so I wanted it to go ever as soon as possibly. It was awfully boring the first day I was eating the whole time and the next I slept. I have put your picture up, but I’m taking it down again before my father and Else returns. I know it’s silly but I’m just scared, and I don’t know why. Chris is thrilled about it and are talking away about you, and telling me you are coming tomorrow to play with him. I’m sorry about the flags, I got one for you, didn’t get one in Copenhagen as I only went to the town once, but I’ll tell Famme to get one from Hersens next time. Hope it’s all right. We had a card from my father and Else from Italy to-day, they are having a wonderful time. I wish I was there. I phoned up Inge yesterday but she wasn’t in, so she will phone me to-day, it will be quite interesting what she has to tell, I’ll ask her to come out here for an evening. Mette is going to write to you, so she has said for the last three weeks, but when it is going to be done I just don’t know. I’m including one of you handketh- something (I’m too lasy to look it up) you forgot the last time, but I have first got it the other day from the wash. I’m going to the pictures to-morrow with Mette to see a Danish film. Everybody from the kindergarden sends regards to you, they have asked me how you were. You know I think it’s very good that we are writing regularly once a week I’m always looking forward till each Wednesday when I know there will be a letter from you, though I’d rather it was yourself who was coming, but it just have to be like this. I wonder how long a letter will take from India, much longer I suppose but if you go you will come soon to Europa again won’t you darling. My father has tricked me to make a tablecloth by taking me a but, that I could not finish it by Christmas, I do hate to sew, but well I don’t know I have started it any way. Well darling, I really don’t have anything to write always get stuck when I write, I’m sure if you were here I would talk like anything, but to write I’m no good. Darling I love you and miss you very much, but it is not so hard now, not to have you here as in the beginning funny isn’t it, but a good thing really otherwise I wouldn’t be able to survive for such a long time, but I can and will make it darling I couldn’t live without you. all my love, hugs and kisses darling yours forever I love you xxxxx ooooo
P.S. Love from Mette and Olga
October 4th, 1952
Nasset den 4-10-52
My darling Maj,
Thank you very much for your letter, it was so wonderful to hear from you, and very many thanks for the present, you are always so very nice to me, Mette was very glad as well, I think she will write, but when I just don’t know as she push it of the whole time. She hasn’t gone to the farm yet, I don’t think she will be going before the 10th or maybe she will stay home for another moth. I think it’s very good you have got a job, just to pass the time but I should think it was very hard. Maybe it is a good idea about the rubber plantage, but just what is the danger involved with it, can’t you tell me something more about it, so I’ll know what it’s all about. I’ve been wondering what you meant about it seemed you mother didn’t mind our marriage, have you told her about it or what. My father and Else often ask how you are doing, I’m sure they must think there is something, but they never ask me about it, and that in a way is good as I just would not no what to answer but the truth, as I would not lie to them. Darling it will be wonderfull the day nothing is secret anymore, a good thing is that I have Mette to talk to, and she does not say anything, and think everything is splendid. Besa has gone to England now, she is stay in Oxford, a friend of her, whom I met this summer has just married and have gone to jive as her husband is something there I don’t know what. Karen is coming here to-night, we are going to sew, she has got a tablecloth just like mine, and we are going to have a lovely gossip. It has been awfull weather here as well and I’ve been wet nearly to the skin every day going to town. I’ve been to a doctor yesterday as I’ve felt so awfully tired and bad tempered lately and my left leg has been paining like anything and I’m going to have some massage and iron, as my blood something is too low, so I hope it’ll help. Darling I wish more then ever you were here, as I miss you so very much, I keep thinking of last year when we had such a wonderfull time together. It’s nice for you that everybody is back in Cambridge again, you won’T have such a dull time then, will you give my love to them all. Olga is going to take this to town to have it posted, so I think I’ll stop for now. Please write soon to me again.
All my love, hugs and kisses
from your forever
October 17th, 1952
Nasset den 17-10-52
My darling Maj,
Thank you very much for your nice letter, I was quite worried what had happened to you since it took so long time, but it’s quite all right now and was very happy the day the letter arrived. The whole family including Chris was going to Copenhagen, but it was canceld in the last minute as all the doctors said it was rather dangerous to take Mette and I there because of the poliomyelitis, and my father would not risk that, so we’ll go in a month time I hope instead, when it’s getting better. Olga is having her week-end, so the three of us is all alone in the house I do wish you were here, we would be able to have such a wonderful time. My grandmother is coming this afternoon so I had to get up early about 12 to get my room tidy and clean, hasn’t been done for a week, I know I’m awfully lasy, I wonder what our house will be like as you are even more untidy than I am, but never the less I sure we are going to have the most wonderful time together, how long time will it be before we can marry if you go to the university, oh darling I think it’s wonderful, as you there will be staying in England, and I might be able to see you more after this. Things are rather dull here, it’s now certain that I’m staying home till after Christmas, when I go to Paris. I went to a party the other day and someone tried to kiss me but didn’t succeed, so you see darling you are the last one who has kissed me and I don’t want to be kissed till you do it again, it’s quite easy to be faithfull now and I’m going to show you that I can. Mette and Chris sends there love, I should think you are annoyed with Mette now because of the long silence, by the way have you heard from Janne. I’m getting awfully fat again I had my black suit on yesterday and could hardly butten up the jacet, so I’ll just have to slim again, now don’t laugh, how are you getting on by the way. Now I hope to here from you soon again darling, I do miss you so awfully much and keep on thinking of the lovly time we had last year at this time, I wish I was with you again I love you so very much, I glad your mother think it’s all right about our marriage. Love to Toni.
All my love, hugs and
kisses yours forever
October 29th, 1952
My darling Maj,
Thank you very much for you letter, it was so nice to hear from you, I’m sorry it has taken a little longer than usual, but there has been rather a lot to do and we have had a family gathering as well because my grandparents 55 wedding aneversery so we had dinner there to cheer my grandmother up, and I had too much to eat so I had an awful stomach ache the rest of the evening. Thank you for the pictures of the dogs. I don’t think Else like the look of the bull terrier, she said she wouldn’t have it even in her cool cellar, but I suppose we are going to have thousands of them when we are married darling, as I know your passion for them. As for the photos taken in the kindergarten I haven’t got them at all from the girl in Esbjerg though I have written twice, so I don’t quite know what to do now I have no pictures of myself and I don’t think there will be taken any for a long time. I have had my hair cut quite short again and look not one day older than seven now so everybody say, it sounds very good about that job of your, but can’t quite understand everything, but as long as we able to marry sometimes and don’t have to wait too many years it’s all right. Does it mean you’ll have 50 in the beginning, and isn’t that quite a lot. What will your parents think of it. Will you tell me something more about it. I wish I was with you now I miss you so awfully sometimes and long for you darling. I was in Aarhus the other day with my father and Else to have my eyes examined as they hurt and I got an awful head ache when I read a lot so he said I had something wrong with the construction so I have got glasses now for reading, and I look very intelligent with them, keeping on the look of any age. Well darling there is nothing much more to write about hope you are not angry because of the letter coming a little bit late I feel awfully about is as I always are longing after your letters. Regards to you from everybody. Hope you are all right darling.
All my love hugs and kisses
Yours forever Toots
P.S. Do you know anything about Gunnel, as I should like to hear from her, or try to write to her. Excuse the pensil.
November 17th, 1952
My darling Maj,
Thank you very much for your letter, I’m sorry for not writing, but I just got your letter today on returning from Copenhagen. It was so nice to hear from you I do miss you an awful lot darling I wish we were soon going to be together again. We had a wonderful trip to Copenhagen starting last Wednesday by boat from Aarhus. Chris was with us as well, and behaved very well, though I had a rather tough night with him last night going home on the ship. He didn’t want to sleep and kept on pulling his bedclothes of and there was very cold, but I suppose it will be even worse when we are going to travel with all our kids, but you’ll have to take your part of the job, now you know in good time. The first night Else and I went to the theater as Mette arrived in C a day later and the next the three of us went to another theater so my father had to look after Chris for those too evenings. I went to see my grandparents one afternoon and my uncle and aunt the other. They have just got a son so we, Mette and I was supposed to come for the Christning next Sunday, but we can’t get of so soon again. My mother came in Saturday afternoon with the two little ones and we had tea together, and Janne and Viller stayed at the hotel with us for the week-end. I’ve taken an extra free day today, as I was awfully tired after Chris and had so much to do washing and so on. Else and my father has gone to hear a political speech to night, but I didn’t feel like it I’d rathr stay home and write to you, as I know you waiting for a letter. How is all your plans going on darling. I should think you would soon know something as there soon had gone long time funny how time go, in one way very quickly and in another so very very slowly. I wish you were here so we could talk together in stead of all this sily writing, though I wouldn’t miss your letters for anything, but I would like to have you right here. What are you doing now Toni has gone, has Dhrien gone as well. Darling I think I’ll stop now as I’m actually tired and promised myself an early night and it’s already past ten. I do hope I’ll here from you soon again.
All my love, hugs and kisses yours forever Toots.
I love you darling, very much. You are a funny thing darling and I love you when you write to me, even in a drunken state.
December 1st, 1952
Hasens den 1-12-52
My darling Maj,
Thank you so very much for your letter, it was so very nice to hear from you I am sorry it has taken a little time since I wrote but for three night we have had guist at home and yesterday we were at my grandmothers in the evening and I had some friends for tea. Saturday night it was rather a big party and so very doll for Mette and I with polite coversation with my father and Elses friends a thing I hate, so at half past ten we went over to Karen and William as they were home for the week-end and had a lively gossip. At the moment I’m looking after the children in the kindergarten, they are having there after-dinner sleep so there is nothing much to do for me at the moment. I can’t quite understand that you havn’t got something jet to do, doesn’t it take so very long time or is that the usual thing. It must not be very nice for you not knowing anything. What are you doing you never write about being with some friends or aren’t you. Next week will be very busy for me as there is an basar, do you know what that is or is it only a danish habit, well Else is the head of it and I’ll have to help her for three days so I’m off in the kindergarten for that time, and I think it will be great fun. Mette was home for the week-end too, she has got herself a boy friend and it has changed her a lot to the better and she is not so bad tempered now, he was out for tea yesterday too, with Karen and William and we had a nice time I did wish you could have been there as well, I dreamt an awfull lot about you last night, and it was awful to wake up and no you there. I do hope it will not be long before I see you again, don’t you think you are able to go to Paris some time, it would be fun if you could come on your birthday and then stay mine over. Darling I hope you are not cross because I have not written before but as we are so alike on that point I don’t think you are, but please write to me soon again. Well I don’t think I know any more to tell you this time, but that I love you so very much.
All my love hugs and kisses yours forever
Love from Mette
December 14th, 1952
Sunday the 14th Dec.
My darling Maj,
I can't understand that I haven't heard from you for so long time, I do hope you are all right. Every day I come home Olga is shaking her head, I hope it won't be long before I will hear something. I have been in bed a couple of days, as my sinus started trouble again, but now it's all right. My father and Else is in Copenhagen so it is so very dull here and not hearing from you makes it even more depressing. I have been thinking a lot of you lately lying in bed as I couldn't read or do anything, because my head was aching like anything. I have already started packing a little for France the most awful business, it's one of the worst job I know. I had a card from Dhrien the other day, and see he is going home, it must be rather lonely for you. Darling remember last you, I would just like to wish me a year back or a few days, it would be absolutly lovely to be with you again I do love you so much, please write to me soon to say everything is all right.
All my love hugs and kisses yours forever