January 13th, 1954
13th January 54.
You are wonderful, and I love you so I just can’t describe it, you can’t imagine how much I miss you these days. I got your letter last night when I returned from Copenhagen and gave your letter to my father, and he thought it was a very nice and good letter, and liked it a lot, I think you did that awfully good and am sure you impressed both of them, so he said everything was all right and we were now engaged officially and then told Janne and Viller it and Else phoned Ulla up to tell my familie and best wishes for the both of us and Ulla and Erik said they were very happy about it as they liked you a lot. Everybody congratulate me to-day and I’m feeling on top of the world, only I wish you could be here. I’ve had flowers from Ulla and Erik and from the first man in the office, and wish you could be here to see it all. My father will write to you one of the first days, and I’ll have to write to my mother and grandparents in Copenhagen to tell them as I promised my father not to say anything before. Poor darling, you needn’t be jealous of the soldier here, I have not seen him a long long time and won’t most likely see him a long time, so please don’t worry about that. Most likely it will be so Else my father and I will come to Karachi in September to see you and for me to see what everything is like Else has already been to see the different airlines, and it will only take about 24 hours the trip I mean, so won’t that be wonder ful just think of it I will be seeing you so soon, I think you should wait with the ring till then, and then too you will have me with you, so it seems that everything is turning out fine. I’m so awfully buzy at the moment will all our things for the house and have started to saw some tablenaps and serviettes I think that is very good of me don’t you, and Else and I have been looking at china in Copenhagen, how I wish too you were there to see if you like it, but I do hope you will like it as if you don’t it will make me feel awful. We have not looked at furniture and a Frigidaire yet, as I want to know how big a flat we will have and about the electricity in Karachi, as it would be awful to get something that does not go with the electricity. Could you please find out what the linnen your mother would give us consist of as I don’t know what to get tell I know about that as it would be silly to get something she gives us and then miss out other things. I know my father would like to know what your parents think about us and especially of me being engaged to you, do you think it was possible they or your father could write a letter to my father. I think both my father and Else are enjoying to have an engaged daughter and they both go round calling each other mother and father in law or as it is called in Danish svigermor rg svigerfar, and Chris says to me soorger Maj, (brother in law) it is such a funny feeling, but you can’t imagine how I enjoy to tell everybody about it darling I love you so much. I’m afraid I won’t be here in Hersens the 1st of February as we are leaving for Switzerland the 30th Jan. as Else and my father goes with me and we are going to stay at a hotel in a place called Villars for about a week skiing and skating, but I’m going to hold my birthday here the 28th the same day as yours, isn’t that funny, we are going to have the family and some of my parents friends, so couldn’t it be that day
Sorry I jumped over this page.
if you phone I don’t think it is at all silly if you want to have a ring as nearly all men here in Denmark have that so I’m used to it my father don’t as he is married second time, but with my mother he had one. Well darling I’ll have to write to my mother now so I’ll stop for this time but I do hope you will write very soon to me again, and please don’t worry I’m so faithful to you and not going out with anybody here as you asked me to, I’m sure I won’t go out with anybody till I see you again Janne want to write to you behind this page so all my fondest love hugs and kisses
Yours forever and ever
By the way, I think the wedding will be in the summer of 56 if that will be all right for you to come then, I do hope it will darling.
(reverse side of paper…)
May I congratulate you and wish you the very best with the engagement with my sister. I am very happy for her as I like you a lot and promise not to be so shy about speaking english next time we meet. Anyhow I intend to come out to Karachi sometimes when you are married to see how everything is getting on. I am helping Lotte with her sewings as I cannot say she is very good at doing those sorts of things but I am sure she will succeed as I have given her a good start and Else is helping her too. I hope you will look well after her when she is your wife and again the best wishes with love from your sister-in-law
January 28th, 1954
Nasset 28th Jan 1954
Thank you so (sorry to use so many so’s) very much for your letter, it was so wonderful to hear from you, I was so happy to have your letter, but what a disappointment that the call didn’t go through, I went round all afternoon couldn’t do anything and now I’ve just heard it’s off, as for as I understand it was in hindon (?) there was too much noise, well anyhow it does not help going round being bad tempered and thanks an awful lot for trying to phone me, it was sweet of you, and many happy returns of the day it will come too late now, hope it does not matter too much. Well I’ve got an awful lot to ask you about and to tell you but I don’t know if I dare now as you say I write too dramatic, but to start off with I love you so very much and long for you so much I think I’m going crazy sometimes, but what is there to do about it. How I would like you just to come in this moment and here for our birthday dinner tonight as it is just as much for you as for me, I’ll write again just before going to bed telling you how it all went off. I started this day by the whole family coming singing by here dressed up that’s a custom we have in our family and then I had all my presents all things for the house mostly for the kitchen, so in a way it’s for you too, and now in one hour the guests are coming it is my grandmother, Elses father, Ulla and Erik, Karen and her parents and Mr and Mrs Beck, you know them all, you have played tennis with Mr. Beck if you can’t remember who that is, well more about that later. Now would it be better if we came out in July as my father can’t leave the factory any time near or after Christmas, and as they say it is not to try to make me change my mind and they know it is and will be very hot, but in a way it will be good to see when it is warm too, do you understand that, but then will it in any way interfere with your work (I still love you) as that would not be so good, and of course we would like to be able to see you as much as possible and you must show us all of interest, your letter find out about as Else is very cautious and ask all sorts of question, for my part I don’t care about everything at the moment but the one thing to be with you and see you and talk to you and be kissed by you, but I have to have everything straightened out so I’ll go on asking you things. Do you think it is possible for you to send me some magazines or newspaper articles so we know something about Karachi and Pakistan, as it is nearly impossible to find out something about it here in Denmark. I’ve tried a lot as I don’t know much about anything and I don’t want to look stupid and say I don’t know when people ask me about you and the country, and they do I can assure you, you can’t imagine what they can ask. Am still loving you darling, better tell you a bit about that before I go on, this letter seems to go on forever tonight still next thing. Why can’t you tell your parents honestly darling, if you knew that why didn’t you tell me that before, I can’t tell mine about it, I don’t know how to, anyhow you could have told me that beforehand and then we would have waited to tell both later on, you’ll have to do something about it, anyhow I suppose you will have to tell your parents we are coming this summer so why don’t say it now, you saw everything went alright with my parents and we had so much worry about that I thought the whole time it was alright with yours, what do you think of this. I know alright we won’t be rich, but now my father said it would be very good for me to take a course in correspondence and a commercial training, as I’ll have to do something in the beginning of our marriage as I’ll go crack going round doing nothing and then there might be a chance of me getting into SAS or the Danish consulate or one of the Danish firms in Karachi as my father seems to know someone who knows someone, you know how it is, and I think it sounds very good if only I’m close enough for that, anyhow I start by taking a course in Switzerland now. I hope it won’t interfere with any of your plans or other things. Now just time for a kiss for you darling. Regarding the way of getting to Pakistan and I think it’s better to talk about that till we meet this summer oh I do hope it can be this summer as I do miss you such a lot darling. Then there was one thing Else wanted to know how about rugs, not anything special, as any would be special here in Denmark, something like the ones you saw in our sitting room, how much they are and would it be possible to get to Denmark and not to pay too much duty you know in the custom as she would very much like to have one, she has bought out there, but on the other hand she does not want to pay too much, and your Sviger for would like to know if there is a Rotary club in Karachi and in that case where, do you know anything about that at all or could you find out, poor darling what a job it is for you to marry that Danish girl of yours. Well the evening is over now and it’s two o’clock now I suppose you are getting up soon, everything went off very well and my father held (is it called that) a speech in which he congratulated both of us with the birthday specially you as it really was your day, and said he hoped you weren’t causing too much about the phone call, but he felt sorry for both of us, and then he congratulated us with the engage event and said he hoped we would be very happy together and he was very glad it was you as he liked you so much and was sure I would be happy with you and so am I darling, then known father held a speech, in which he talked about me and said a lot of nice things about me and I blushed awfully you know how and the rest of the evening we talked and talked you know how it is and every body told dirty stories, that comes now I’m engaged then they don’t care what I hear, that’s funny. Well it’s 230 now and I’ll have to go to bed as I have to pack tomorrow I haven’t started yet and we are leaving early Saturday evening. Next time you write it will be to Switzerland and the address is h. Petersen
c/o Mme Brugger,
Well darling I do hope to hear from you very soon, I don’t suppose there will be so many questions next time, but please start from one end and then answer all this, oh isn’t it silly we can’t be together now and then and talk about all this it’s so difficult to write about, but still it can’t be helped. All my fondest love hugs and kisses yours forever
PS. Everybody sends their love to you.
February 13th, 1954
c/o Mme Brugger
17, av de la Gare
My dearest darling, I love you,
Have you forgotten me, now I can’t wait any longer, but had to write to you, still I hope there will be a letter from you one of these days. When I come to think about it it’s only about a faughtnight since I wrote, but to me it seems such a long time, because so many things has happened. As we arrived here in Switzerland we stayed here in Lausanne for one day and a half and I had everything unpack and brought into order in my room, how I hate to pack and unpack clothes, and after that we went to Villars a small village in the mountains, to stay there for a week, it was wonderful, you just can’t imagine, oh yes you can as you’ve done it yourself, how I the whole time wished you’d been there it was just the place for some like us, there was two couples on honeymoon, darling I miss you so much also here in Lausanne as the whole atmosphere is like Cambridge, you know lots of young people going to school and after going round places drinking coffie, sometimes I take myself in thinking when the lesson is finished so I can get up to you just as I did before, it’s awful sometimes, but still now there is only about 5 month till I’ll see you I hope, I am looking forward to hear what you mean about July, though my father last we talked about it said, “Now if Maj find it’s no good going in July we will make it just after Christmas” but honestly darling wait so long seems a dreadful thought. My school here is very good and we have nice teachers, I like very much writing on a machine, maybe soon you’ll have letters written on the machine, but to write French and the grammer, that gives me a lot of troubles though I can speak French fairly well now, but then I don’t write English so well either, maybe I’ve leanrt it when I’m old. Can you remember Besa, she is here too and of course Mette, we are having a nice time together, she is so sweet now Mette and wonderful looking, she said she would write to you one day, she is very happy about her brother in low as she always says, and is awfully curious about everything so I have to tell her what I said to my father and you wrote and what my father said, as she says she got to learn it for when it will be her turn, but she can’t understand that I’m so old that I’m going to get married soon, I wish it was very soon but darling I’ll wait all the time till you are ready, it’s all up to you now, I’m feeling so good that my parents know about it and you know sometimes I realize again that I really am engaged properly and good it gives me a wonderful and warm feeling everytime. Have you noticed that I haven’t asked you one question this time, I think it’s because I haven’t Else to put me questions all the time, I do hope you did not mind it too much darling anyhow how nice it will be when I see you again, and can talk everything over with you and get all sorts of thing I don’t know a bit of sorted a bit out. I was interrupted by dinner or rather supper and Madame asked me if I wanted to go to the theater with her to see a show as her brother is director of the theater and she always have some free seats, so of course I went and it was splendid, and awfully funny, so all together it was a nice evening. Tomorrow I’m going out to see Mette at her school and have a long chat with her, she has just been in bed with a cold. Darling I hope to hear from you very soon, you don’t know how I look forward to you letters, for me not it’s really as good as to be with you, of course I would far prefer you to be here or me to be there, but now as it can’t be otherwise I look forward to your letters. Darling stop for this time as I must go to bed now, I don’t write in bed like you I love you so much and gives you all my fondest love hugs and lots of kisses yours forever
xxxxx ooooo Latte
P.S. Why did you write Toots to Far and Else if you know how they cheesed me with that, in the future I think we’d better drop that, as I still don’t stand cheesing very well.
February 28th, 1954 to be continued on March 5th, 1954
c/o Mme Buigger,
17 av. de la Gare
My darling Maj,
Thank you so very much for your letter you can’t imagine how happy I am yesterday morning when I had it. I don’t understand what has happened to the other letter you’ve sent as it has not arrived here at all, I asked Mme Buigger about it, but she has not seen it at all, I do hope no other letter will disappear as it is very annoying when both of us is waiting for a letter at the same time. Darling it is absolutely wonderful that July is all right, I wrote to my parents yesterday to tell them, what you had written, and I can tell you too that I am counting the days too till July. I don’t know what day we are comming but I’ve asked about that too, so I’m sure Else is starting to make plans very soon, I think it would be very nice to stay the same place as you, it is nice of your uncle to have asked us, but that too I’ve written to my parents, how I would like to be with you just now, there seems to be an awful lot to talk about, and just that to be with you again, it is wonderful now to have a certain day to look forward to instead of just sometimes in the future, and after all 4 month is not so very long time, what a day though when I’ll have to leave again, but that I’ll just not think about till it comes. Thank you very much for the photo too, it was very good the only thing, I think your moustache is a bit too big this time remember the first day I met you, it wasn’t so big, how funny it seems that once I didn’t know you at all, what a luck we did meet, I’m so happy to have such a wonderful fiancé. I’m glad you have told your parents about the engagement, don’t you feel better about it too, after all it would not be fair to them if you had not said anything, I hope though you didn’t have any troubles about it Darling.
I’m awfully sorry that I didn’t finish your letter the other day, but I was called for dinner and after that, I went to the theater it was decided 5 minutes before the performance began, and I changed in 2 minutes, and after that I just didn’t get down to write and I’d had such an awful lot of homework and been talking such a lot of time away, I do hope you forgive me, but please now darling I hope to hear from you soon again. Thank you for your letter I had yesterday, it makes me feel so good to have a letter from you. how did you coctail party go. I wonder what that man was called who came from bondou, as you know Moniques uncle whom she is staying with at the moment called van Bloeme, is something big in Shell, can it have been him, he is very nice, and specialy his wife is awfully sweet. We have a lot of fun here and luckely the time goes very quickly for me, soon it will be July. Besa, the two other boys staying here and I have always a lot of fun, one of the boys is nearly engaged to a Swedish girl and we both agree that it is just hell to have the beloved so far away. Nearly every evening we meet about 10 a’clock to drink something in one of the rooms and then have to do the rest of the work till 2. I think the grammar is better now but what a language to write, my dictionary is very used and look far from new, it is not like Cambridge this though I don’t know how many times I wish it was, last night I went to dinner with some of my parents friends here in Lausanne a Danish lady married to a French man and they are awfully sweet both of them, he always ask everytime he sees me, how is Pakistan, I do wish you will meet them once. I’ve had a long letter form my mother, am asking all sorts of questions about you, and she wanted to see some stamp so can’t you send some different on your next letter, everbody wants the stamps, but now Mette has started collecting stamps so I give them to her. Darling I was not photographed in Hersens, I don’t know why I guess I forgot about it in all that fuss there was, but some other time you will get some, Mette was here to day and ate all my bisquits everytime she comes she finish everything I have, they don’t have so nice food in her school, but she said she much preferred you without a moustache she said you looked awfull so I said she was not to say such a thing that you looked very sweet, so she just grinned and said Oh all this love but still she is awfully sweet and we get along wonderfully. You wrote something about I did not answer your letter before last properly, but it is in Denmark and I can’t remember what you wrote, but if there is something will you please write it again. Well darling I’ll stop for this time as I’ll take my bath now so I hope for news very soon. I love you so much but now there is nearly only 3 ½ month left, what a day it will be.
All of my fondest love and lots of hugs and
kisses yours forever Toots
March 21st, 1954
c/o Mme Brugger
17 av de la Gare
My darling Maj,
I love you so very much, it was so wonderful to have your letter with all the good news about your job, you must be very good when you already have been advanced so much, you just don’t how proud I am of my fiancée, oh darling it’s wonderful, but there is one thing I’ve been thinking of, won’t it be a bit silly to change job now everything is going so well, won’t you have a chance of changing later on in Shell to Canada, I mean now everybody seems so pleased with you. Darling I’ve got some awful news for you, and I just don’t know how to tell you I’ve been feeling awful the last days about it too, it’s my parents who has written to me as were anyhow not getting married the first two years they would wait to go to Karachi till next March or July, depending what time would be the best for my father. I just cried the whole day, of thinking of not till see you before another year has passed, I don’t know what I’d do for coming to see you now, but unfortunately I don’t think my parents will change. What can we do, this is just maddening not to be able to see you, if you know how I miss you, there is not any hope of getting married before you think, I can tell you I get a wonderful and funny feeling when I think we really are getting married some day, you don’t know how I enjoy to talk to people openly about my fiancée, but to have him so far away that is just awful, what can we do about it. Thanks very much for sending me a scarf, I’m looking very much forward to have it. I have had a very nice letter from your mother, and have answered it, now I do hope I did it well enough, but I suppose you’ll hear about it, Mette told me she had had a letter for you and she seemed very pleased about it. She has been here all Sunday as Besa’s father has been here is Lausanne and we went out for lunch with him, wonderful and after that we went sailing on the lake. It is absolutely lovely weather here and we can already go outside with only a suit, whereas in Denmark it is still very cold and rainy, and a lot of wind, it is an awful climate we have there. Last night went to the theater again to see the very, I think I’ve seen it 6 times now, it is chic to be able to get in of the back door and not paying and this morning I went to a concert, I’ve started to like classic music very much. Besa and I have started to play tennis twice a week now, it’s very good exercise, though I must admit I play very badly, but I hope to improve it now, and I think we will soon be able to go swimming to. Darling I miss you I’ve got your picture up just next to my bed, and dream very after of you and wake up till nothing, honestly why is it that we should have it this way, now spring is coming everybody seem to be in love here. Still no use to write about is it does not help us anymore. I’m sorry about the awful writing, but for once I’m writing in bed. I’m not looking forward till tomorrow as I have not done one single thing for school, that is very seldom though but I took Mette to the cinema as she had got the whole day from school it’s not very often they get permission for that. We went to see “An American in Paris” do you remember when we saw that with Else in London how I wished you were there to hold my hand. Haven’t you any chance of going on a business trip till Europe, would that not be heavenly. I inclose to pictures a girlfriend took of Mette and I, hope you like them. Will you write to me again very soon darling as I’m just longing to hear from you again.
I’m sending you all my fondest love hug and kisses your forever
April 13th, 1954
c/o Mme Brügger
17av de la Gare
My dearest darling,
Thank you so much for your letter, you don’t know have I’d longed to hear from you, and the day, yesterday, when I had it I was so happy and felt like jumping the whole day, I do hope it won’t be so long next time, though I quite understand you, I can tell you I don’t feel very much like writing letters when I’ve finished my homework, you can’t imagine how much we have to write, but still to write to you is something else. Thank you very much for the photos too, how I’m glad you have shaved that moustache of yours, a small one is all right, but that big one, no, I must say I don’t like that very much, better then let your hear grow a bit. Darling I love you so very much, it’s awful we have to wait so long, but I’m going to try to make my parents make that trip in January or March instead of waiting till July next year, now I’ll see what can be done, and I can promise you I’m going to do my very very best, as I long for you so much I just can’t tell you. You are wonderful that you have already saved such a lot of money, doesn’t it seems very near now, I mean the time we can get married, oh won’t it be heaven, not to have to part ever again, and we can do just as we want without having to think of anything or anybody but ourselves. It sounds very good what you have found out about jobs for me, and I think it was just what my father was thinking of too, so now I’ll have to do something about it when I go home, and no time to he idle, or skip my home work, but I think I’ll have to take another course in English writing as spelling is my weak point, I can assure you it gives me trouble to spell the French too, but it does so cheer me up having news from you, this time you wont be so long about writing, please Darling. I’m very pleased your parents liked my letter gosh it was difficult to write, but as long as they through it all right it’s good. I think too my father was pleased to hear from them. Mette went home for Easter holiday last week as she had 3 weeks holiday, whereas I only have 3 days, so I have to stay an alone, not too funny, as Besa has gone home too, and on top at this Andre’s Swedish fiancée is coming here to day, so I’ll have to go round and look at those two. When Mette left she promised to sent me a telegram so I knew she was safely at home, as it was the first time she travelled alone and she was very nervous about it, but instead they telephoned me, which was wonderful. My father told me, he had had the magasins and newspapers from you, and he knew it was his turn to write to you, which he will do later, and asked me to intill they say thank you for them, he is so very lazy at the moment as it is just the time when he has to get all the tobaco for the next year, they are leaving for Holland just after Easter for the great bay, so I don’t know when he’ll have time to write. Do you want me to write to your cousin now, I’ll have to talk to Else before I can do anything about the summer holiday, but I would like her very much to come to Denmark and I’m sure Else won’t say anything either but as I’m going home the 29 of Maj as that day my father will be 50, I’ll talk to her about it. We Mette and I are going home for just a couple of days, as I’m sure my father would like to have as there then, he does not know anything about it, and are not to know about it before we are there, so surely it will be a big surprise to him. Would you mind writing him a card on that day, I’m sure it would make a good impression, and Elses birthday is the day after, that is the 30th May and she will be 40 so it’s two big birthdays. I do hope you won’t find me too cold a nothener when we meet again, though I suppose I’ll just have to get a bit used to have you around again in the beginning, that will be most odd to be kissed again I nearly can’t remember what it’s like, as I can honestly say I’m absolutely fathfull to you, and I don’t find it a bit difficult, I suppose I have the same super extra special love for you too darling, but if you find the time till next year too long, I can assure you that I find it indeed very long too. I had exactly the same blow when I had the letter from home as you had, one minute you count 3 month and then suddenly a year, but as I said before I’m going to do my best at making it earlier. How funny you’d been to see “An Amerikan in Paris” as it is only about three weeks that I went to see it here in Lausanne with Mette and did I think of you. Next weekend, Easter week-end I’m going to stay with some of my parents friends who live just here outside Lausanne, as they thought it would be too lonely for me to be alone all Easter, that is very nice they are awfully sweet, it’s a Danish lady married to a French man, every time I go out there he always says “How is Pakistan”. I hope you will meet them some time as they are very nice. Otherwise nothing much happens here specially now I’m alone, but Sunday I slept nearly all day, that is wonderful now to be able to sleep as long as I want to Sunday morning. I did miss that in France, what a luck you like that too. I enclose some photo I’m afraid you’ll have to wait till I go home, I hope that doesn’t matter, as I just haven’t got much money here, my father is very strickt about that, good for me though as I don’t get used to have too much money, but when we get married you’ll have to keep the count, as I can’t like that at all and it always turn up wrong one way or the other. Well darling I better stop now, this got to be a awful long letter, now I do hope you will write quickly, though you’ve got lots to do.
And all my fondest love hugs
and kisses yours forever
April 29th, 1954
c/o Mme Brügger
17av de la Gare
My dearest darling,
Thank you so very much for your long letter, I had Tuesday evening, it has taken a long time to come this time I think I was in Zurich that day to see my stepfather, you know the one my mother married after having divorced my father, but they were only married 5 years. He is awfully nice, and I like him a lot, he is now living in the East, and travelling all over the place, he has been in Karachi several times and we talked of course about all that the whole afternoon, he is going back in the beginning of September, and he promised to look you up when he go through Karachi, so can’t you tell me where he can get you, I mean you private address as I suppose you would like to meet him too, he is really very nice. As you know Mette was home for Easter, and she brought back everything you sent to my parents and I have been studying everything. Well darling I suppose you want to know what I think of all that you wrote to me, I must say I’ve been thinking a lot about it, darling I am all for you going to Canada, if you think it will be good for you, I know I will feel happier living in Canada than Pakistan, but I want to know honestly if you will be happy there too, as you know girls get more easily acostumed to a foreign country than boys, and really darling I would feel awful if you weren’t happy. I know that the first couple of years would be all right as we are very much in love, and just that to be together again would be wonderful, but after that, do you think you would be able to settle down well. You write there is no cauler (?) bar, but are you quite quite sure about that, to me it does not mean anything you know that, but I would feel very unhappy if you had a feeling that there was, as I don’t want you to be hurt by anybody, I love you so much and wouldn’t want for anything in the world that you are unhappy. Canada is very big, where do you want to go as you haven’t written anything about that. I feel very unhappy about getting married other place than in Hersens, don’t you think anything can be arranged about that, when exactly do you think we can get married. One thing is that if we live in Canada, it would not be necessary for me to collect quite as many things as I have to if we get married in Pakistan and so I might to be able to save some money, I don’t mind to start in a small apartment that I can keep myself, with a bit of help from my husband, that’s you, funny to think of, and then we can always work our selves up to better things. I’m quite capable to work in a house and cook, if you are not around all the time, remember Gunnels kitchen, and I’m sure we would have a lot of fun. Another thing is that surely my parents wouldn’t let me go of like that alone to get married like that, so I’m sure that will come out all right. But when you go to Canada that means when you emigrate like that, won’t you have to do the military service too, I’m really sure you have to, and that will take one year if not more. I don’t know any body in Canada and I don’t think my father does eighteen as he as in Amerika, Kentucky is that right spelled, but I will talk it over with them when I go home, as it is much easier that to write, how I wish you were here to talk everything over with me, as to write all this is very difficult and it is so easy to forget something. Poor darling so much work, I’m so proud of you already you have saved so much and are working so hard, I do hope you will find me well worth it. What will your firm in Pakistan feel about that you leave them, won’t they be sure about it, but of course if you find it is better to leave now I can only say do it by all means, and what does your parents think about it? If you are in Canada what nationality will you have and what about me? Is all this clear to you now, if there is anything else to write me and ask, but any way here is to our future in Canada, every body I’ve talk to have said Canada is better, my step father too, as he told me how difficult it would be for me to settle down in Karachi, he was really so awfully sweet to talk too. I have not received those scarves yet you have sent but I suppose they will come one of these days, but I’m looking very much forward to have a sari, I wonder how I would look in one. You are quite right, I dress better now than I did before, I think I’m more lady like now, so Else says too, though sometimes I must confess I forget it, but when we are together I will try with your help, which I appreciate very much, to look smart. As soon as I’ve been home that is in the end of May I will write to Rezia, I am nearly sure it is alright she can stay with us Won’t it be wonderful when we can be together again, I don’t now how many dreams I have about it every night when I’m in bed I’m thinking about it and imagining all sorts of things about to keep account, my good ness what a mess it will be, can’t it then be fifty-fifty, please darling, I hope we have some good and sensible children, who are able to look after their parents, but darling I’m sure we are going to have a lot of fun. Darling I really must stop now time is 11 o’clock and I haven’t done any homework for to-morrow, and we have a lot of things to do. Saturday I’m going to make a speech about Pakistan for one hour, so I have to collect all I’ve heard and take help from your magasins and the book. Now if there is anything that is not quite der please write, and do please write quickly as I always so look forward to your letters I’ll send you a kiss with my lipstick, but don’t you dare use lipstick, it might give me wrong ideas, now darling I do trust you very much, as I do hope you have stopped feeling jealous, as I know you’ve done sometimes as you really have got nothing at all to feel jealous about as I am very very faithful to you. well darling till next letter.
All my fondest love hugs
and kisses yours forever
P.S. I had a very nice letter from your mother the other day so now I have to do my best to get a good letter put together for her too.
May 14th, 1954
c/o Mme Brügger
17 av de la Gare
My dearest darling Maj,
I suppose you are surprised to get a letter from me in between one of yours, but the thing is I have something very important and wonderful to tell you. I’ll start from the beginning that is not so good last week I was suddenly called home to Denmark as my mother is very ill, she can never be well again and will surely soon die, I stayed at the hospital at night. She has got lots of pains and have had 4 blood transfusions in one month. But the wonderful thing is that she would give us as an engagement present a ticket by aeroplane for you to come to Denmark in your summer holiday. Can you please at once write to me when your holiday will be and for how long time, and as soon as I know I’ll telephone her and she will arrange everything so you will get the ticket through the travel bureau Amerilean Express, which I’ve found out is in Karachi too. I do hope you will be able to come, as if you are going to Canada in January I don’t know when I would see you. Now one thing before you start looking forward to it is, she might die before everything is arrange, she does not know herself how serious it is, but if she does I’ll will in here something and then I might be able to pay it, or as Else said to me, as we me my parents would not go to Karachi if you go to Canada, so maybe my father will pay the trip instead of the trip for the three of us. Maybe your holiday will be from the first of July and you could fly to Geneve and then we could go together by train to Denmark, oh darling I just can’t believe that maybe I’ll see you in a month and a half, please write as soon as possible, I do hope you will have a long holiday, my parents are also looking very much forward to see you, they send you there love, funny I dream of you every night, wonderful wonderful, this is just in a hurry, I’m all in a flap you can imagine. I’ll be looking for the postman every day, till a letter arrive,
Yours with all my love and
hugs and kisses and I hope, see you
soon, Toots. xxxxx ooooo.
P.S. I love you, I love you, I love you
June 6th, 1954
My dearest darling Maj, Thank you so very much for your letters, I am so sorry that I haven’t answered you before, but I had your letter just the day before I left for Denmark, and as I wanted to talk with my parents about everything, and as I did not have one minute in piece at home, well thats why it has taken all that time to answerd you, I do hope you are not cross with me. Darling it would be wonderful if you are able to come in august, but I’m afraid we wont be able to get married then. First of all I’ve promised my father not to get married till I’ve been to Pakistan to see everything, and as it is out with Canada for the moment and it seems now after all that we are going to live in Karachi for a time, well I don’t like to break a promise and I know my father is only thinking of me and what is the best, so I hope you understand, for the record, I have not got enough education to be able to take a job, as we have planned I should do in the beginning, that will take me about a year to get enough experience, and for the thice(?), do you realise how every things we will have to have to set up a household and though I think I’ve already got good deal in the past five month, it is only a very small part of what we well will need. But darling, just to see you, to be with you again will be wonderful, and then we will most probably, my parents and I come out to Karachi in February and if e there could get married in July, it will be just perfect. If you are coming in the beginning of August I think you will go direct by plane to Copenhagen, so I don’t think you will need any visas, and I’ll make my plans for the holiday so I can be in Copenhagen when you arrive and we will then stay there a week or so, and then go to Hersens. I asked my father and Else about how much money they though you would need and they said about maximum 30. I haven’t got the faintest idea about how much you want to spend for on a ring but I think there is about all prices from 5 and upwards. I must admit I’m a bit of a muddle with all your plans, but I do hope you will be able to come so you can explain all that for me, it seems to me that there is so many things to discuss, and as soon as you sends me the letter to copi, I’ll send it back to you. I had a very nice time in Denmark and it was a great day for my father, he had lots of presents and lots and lots of flowers and there was intervews with him in the newspapers. There were 53 people for dinner and lots of speeches and my father said in his welcome speech that he was sorry that one of the family, his son in law could not be there, I think ta that was nice of him, I was thinking a lot of you that day, I made a speech too for my father it was awfull, I don’t think I’ll do that again, I forgot half of the things I wanted to say. Then Mette and I was back here again Friday, and mayby my parents are coming down here in the car about the 1 of July to fetch us. I hope I’m remembered all you wanted to know, I sory it isn’t longer but I’m in a bit of a such with my lessons and it is already 1130 I have an examen coming up at the end of five, but I doubt very much that I’ll get it. Sorry it has taken all this time to reply, but I do hope to hear from you soon, I’m so nervous about you coming or not. Darling I so want to be with you again. All my love hugs and kisses yours forever
August 15th, 1954
Nasset 15 aug 1954.
My dearest darling Maj, I love you very very much, Thank you so very much for your telegram and letter I had to-day, honestly darling I don’t understand all this why are my letters going astray all the time, I quite understand you get worried about it but honestly I can’t help it, I know there was a long while where I did not get any letters written to you, but that was just after my mother had died, but after that I’ve written as usually I was waiting to hear from you and was just about to write you what was the matter where your telegram arrived. What can be the matter, it must be awful for you to wait like that and worry, but one thing darling you have written now twice and which I explained to you in my last letter, what make you think I don’t love you, because I wrote I was feeling shy and a bit queer to meet you again, darling I love you, I love you very much and very deeply and I want you never never to doubt that, never again, isn’t it naturally to be a little nervous, or am I again silly, when I thought you were coming. So please darling don’t ever worry about that again, how I wish too that we could be together again, I can assure you sometimes I feel I’m getting crazy too, waiting and waiting. But darling if you want it I can write you a certain day every week even though I haven’t lead a letter from you so you will always know if a letter is missing, just tell me is you want that, I’ll do anything for you so you can feel happy. Sorry about my writing this time but I’m in bed, two days ago I was bitten by a bee in the right arm and it has now swollen up to the double and I’m running a temperature so the doctor gives me penecelin injections and I have to stay in bed, it hurts like everything and it goes so slowly with the writing, but I hope it’S over soon as I start shool Monday. It’s the commercial shool here in Hersens it takes a year and then, they say, I should be able to do anything in an office. I’ll have to work up in my fathers office sometimes too in the afternoons too get some practice too, by the way do you remember Inge Moselund, the Danish skool friend of mine, where you met at Carlos just before Christmas, she is starting too in the same class as me. We came all 4 of us back from Copenhagen last tuesday thank God, as I have been quarreling with me grandparents most of the time, they said the most horrible things about my father and said I was lying and many more things, everything becauseof my mothers death and the will, though she leave everything to the four of us, I nearly, where my grandfather one evening started of again saying all those things left their house for good, I don’t think you’d even seen me so cross I went out slamming the door and if it wasn’t left, no it was awful I never want that forthnight to come again, and then on top of all that we had to clear up my mother house and choose what we wanted, which was very trying for the two small ones, I wonder when I going to my grandparents again, not before they in-vite me, it is not always pleasant to be the eldest, never mind as long as I have you, darling. There is something I want to ask you about, and that is next year is it that you want to get married then? I want to very much, but what about me coming to Karachi before that is there chance of you being there sometimes in the spring so we can come out, as I think my father will insist on than, which I very well understand too, and then again will you be staying permanently in Karachi, or are they, the company, likely to send you out again, I know I would be scared stiff if I had to stay all alone in Karachi, where I don’t know anything or anybody, do you understand that, but darling won’t it be wonderful to be married, just together the two of us with no one to interfier, just do as we pleases. Do you think you will be coming next June for sure, is it safe for me to start looking forward for that. Darling I think it’s so nice you can remember so many things about the time when we were together, every night before going to sleep I think of you and what you said what you did and every night I think of when we were together in Carlos flat, it was so wonderful to fall asleep with you there besides me and to wake up and realize you were still there, darling g I miss you so much I hope the time will go very quickly till I see you again. Oh gosh I forgot everything about you new car, I think it’s very good you’ve bought it, I’m looking very much forward to see it and to drive it too if I may, and I feel much happier about you buying a car than a motorbike. I haven’t got more paper than these three pages left, so this won’t be much longer, can I write to you all the time you are in the desert to this adress you’ve given me. My poor poor fiancé having such an awful time, I’m glad I’m not there in a way, with all those makes. I don’t think I’ll ever be friends with snakes. By the way I have been photographed now and I’ll send you a picture as soon as it is ready, I hope you will like it. Well darling this is about all for this time I hope you will write. All my fondest love, hugs and
Kisses yours Toots xxxxx ooooo.
August 30th, 1954
Nasset, 30th August, 1954.
My dearest darling Maj,
Thank you so very much for your letter, it was so wonderful to hear form you again, I’m always feeling very happy and contented the day there is a letter from you. I’m glad you find it a good idea to write a certain day every week funny we’ve never thought of that before. I’ve just finished my home work for to-morrow and Janne and I have had a bath together, water right up till the top and then all Chris’s ships in it and eating appels we had good fun, she says the most funny thing you can imagine coming out with all sorts of bad jokes so we made an awful noise. Far and Else are not home that’s why otherwise, I’m sure they would have come up telling us all the others was at sleep. Yesterday we went down to Dangard a place south of Hersens to visit Kaj, you know my mothers former husband he is leaving Thursday for England and after that for Karachi. Then he will go north to a place I don’t remember the name a big town beginning with P. he said it would take 3 days by train. He has got your address and I don’t know if he will try to contackt you, anyhow now you know if you hear from him. He has bought an old fisherhouse in Dangard next to the sea and I must say I’ve never in my life seen a house like that it was wonderful and every practical made with all sorts of things it was just like a dream. He said if you come here next year he would like us to come down and visit him, I would like you to see that house very much. At last my father has written to you we have teased him an awful lot about not writing for such a long while but he would not let me see the letter, but I know he wrote something about us coming out in the end of April as it’s the only time he is able to go as he has to be in Holland the 2nd of May for the tobacco market, oh darling how I wish it will come out right, but I do understand you if you don’t know yet if you are able to after all your job comes first, but im glad that you after that will be in Karachi so I won’t be alone sometimes I know it is silly of me to be scared like that but I have tried and tried I just can’t help it. I know it is after the shock in Paris with the burglar before that I never cared, I hope it will be better once, but until now well I suppose it is nerves. I’m sorry you think my hair is too short, I think if you saw me you would like it, it is a Frenchman who has done it and it is suppose to be smart, but still if you don’t like it I’ll have something else, if you will promise me to have your hair in the sauce length as you had in Cambridge when you come here again, I don’t like that short hair cut you had. Darling how I’m longing to see you too you can’t imagine, I’ll like to see you pinch yourself all the time if I can be sure you don’t start pinching me in stead. Tell me darling why are you worried about you “Bank” don’t you think you will have sufficient money tell me how much you want to have any how wont it be in any rate cheaper to get married next year when you in all case will be here for two month instead you will have to put money aside for another trip to Denmark you who are always so practical can’t you see that anyhow no need to discuss that now, time will show maybe something will pop up suddenly one never knows. I’m glad you’ll learn Danish but I don’t think I’ll be able to teach you very well remember our lesson on the floor in front of the fire in Cambridge, I suggest you take some lessons here with a real teacher when you come then you can practice with all your family here including me. What a wonderful mixture we can get with all the language. I have an awful bother with the German the grammer is absolutely awful but I go twice a week for a lesson with Ulla she is very good at it and helps Janne and Viller too. She always asks to you and to-day when I was there we started talking you again something I can never get tired of and she asked me to send you her love. Well darling it’s getting late now I think I better stop now and I do do hope to hear from you soon even though I know you are busy. You are always writing you are busy and starting out for work, can’t you explain me exatly what it is you are doing, or is it difficult to explain. Darling till next Monday when I write again all my fondest love, I think of you so much and I love you photo on my desk just in front of me so I can look at you all the time when I’m working and where I’m writing to you. everybody sends love to you.
All my love hugs and kisses
P.S. I love you
September 7th, 1954
Nasset, the 7th of September.
My dearest darling Maj,
Well now it’s Monday again and though I haven’t heard from you yet I’ll write you, but I suppose I’ll hear from you on of the nearest days if you wrote on Thursday. Everything hear is as usual nothing special has happened and I still miss you very much, I am often thinking of how you are doing in the desert I don’t envie you, I am sure I’d be dead scared just to see a snake 100 yards away. Far, else and Mette has gone to the movie I did not want to go as I hadn’t finished my homework and had to write to you and on top of it was that it was a gauster film I didn’t feel like seeing. Janne is coming up here in a moment she want to drop you a line she is awfully cross about the letter from Henbreh that was last as she wrote you a letter and sent it in the same envelope, as she said at last I put my self together to write Maj a letter and then It is lost. Do you remember Iuge Moselund Andersen, the Danish girl who came up to Carlos place the Christmas before I left England, she is in the same class as me in school, she asked me to remember her to you, did you know she had to leave England because she was going to have a baby, she has a lovely little girl now 21 month old, it was with a Persian boy and when he learnt she was going to have the baby he just left her, it must be awful for her, but she is very fond of her daughter and so is her parents, that is good for her, I must say I fell sorry for her but she was very careless and I believe still is as far as I understand, by the way do you sometimes hear anything from Carlos or not. Tell me have you by now stopped smoking all together or do you still smoke pipe or anything. Darling there is one thing I would like to know. You told me once your mother was going to give us some linen couldn’t you find out exactly what it is and how much, I shall tell you why I want to know, it’s because now in two month time we are going to divide my mothers things and then I would like to know how much I shall take of that and also so we won’t have a lot of one thing and nearly nothing of another, do you understand that. Far and Else is leaving for Italy on Wednesday for their summer holiday, but maybe they’ll have to come back soon again as there is a crise in the government, they have used I don’t know how many millions crowns too much, maybe we’ll have a lot of new taxes or maybe a new government it is awful the wireless is talking about it all the time and everybody is talking about it. My father is rather worried about it as of course there is at lot of talk about more tax on the tobacco. What more to tell you, I’ll have to go down in a minute to make tea so I think I have to stop soon, sorry about it isn’t such a long letter this time but I hope you don’t mind. We have had tea now and I’m on my way to bed now. Janne was up here but didn’t get much written down, she was talking to me instead so she will write another day so she said. Mette sends her love to you. I often wish you were here and thinking of what we would have been doing, it’s a wonderfull thing to be able to dream, though sometimes I should like you really was here. Till next Monday I send you all my love, hugs and kisses
Yours forever Toots.
P.S. Can’t you send me some photos of how it is out there where you are and some of yourself.
P.P.S. I love you very very much.
September 20th, 1954
The 20th of Sep. 1954.
My dearest darling Maj,
Monday so here I am right on the dot this time, I’ve just finished my homework and what a work I had 22 mathematical problems what a bore, and I just don’t know how to do it with percent and discount and all that so I had Janne to help me. The only thing I’ve left now in the German correspondence but I’ll do that in school tomorrow. I was so thinking of you yesterday, you see Mettes boyfriend was here to see her, he is in the navy and has just come back from Greenland and had just one days leave they were in Aaihus with the ship and he came of course down here to see Mette, now they the ship is having for Holland and he will first be back in October but there I think he is coming to stay here for a couple of days. It’s the first time I’ve seen him but he seemed to be very nice, but a bit quiet, he is 24 years old, much older than we are, I wonder how that is going to end. But to speak of you again to be in the same room as those two and look at them reminded me of you and me and I so wished it was you who was here, but anyhow time still moves though sometimes it goes too slowly. By the way would you please remember Jannes birthday the 25 and Mettes the 28 this month just a postcard darling. We have had the most awful thunderstorm this evening the only thing that bothers me there is that I can’t listen to the wireless then. Now Fin and Else are coming home soon it will be nice to have them home again. My grandmother has been here most of the time they have been away it’s difficult to talk to now as she can hardly hear a thing, I really hope that won’t happen to me when I get old, it must be awful. What do you think we will look like in 50 years darling. We have Mette and I started to learn how to play bridge, do you know how, it’s not so easy as I thought but good fun. What can I tell you more except I love you so very much and miss you awfully, why can’t you be here or I can be there, what a time we would be having. I’m getting awfully sleepy and can’t think straight any more, would you mind very much darling if I stop now, I know I’ve been writing some very poor letters those last time but when I hear from you I’ll pull myself together and not do it write to you the last thing before I go to bed. But I still love you so very very very much and sends you all my fondest love hugs and kisses.
Yours forever Toots xxxxx ooooo.
December 9th, 1954
December, the 9th 1954.
My dearest darling Maj,
Thank you very much for your letter, I sorry it has taken me such a time to answer you, but we have an end of term examen all this week so I haven’t had time for anything else but to read and read all day long. I’ve already got the results for the first three days and they are all right but I’m positively sure the marks for the arithmetic and mathematic are absolutely awful, I really don’t know how to put two and two together. Anyway that doesn’t matter when it’s you who is going to look after our money, just to give you an example in the calculations over some goods I was 6 ,000 kr below the real result and that’s bad. Darling you was in a very bad mood the day you wrote to me wasn’t you, you don’t know how sad I was when I had your letter, I cried all afternoon over it, darling I’m sorry if I don’t write romantic letter to you, I never really did, did I, but it just seems that I can’t put my feeling down on the paper. I don’t know why, but you must be live me when I say that I do love you so very very much and I miss you awfully, I think of you nearly all the time and how wonderful it will be when we are together again, it is really beatly that we have to be engaged this way just to think we have been engaged officially for nearly one year and we haven’t seen each other all that time, I often sit with Ulla after having had a German lesson with her and talk with her about you and how I miss and always end up by crying because everything seems so miserable, and she has to make coffie, she is really wonderful to me and help me a lot, I seem to be able to talk with her about you much better than my parents, because they always say that there are a lot of young people in the same passion as we are, but that’s not a help, what do I care about other people when I’m sad and miss you. by the way, Else is going towrite to you about our trip to Karachi, I don’t know how it’s getting on, any way they are in Copenhagen at the moment and are going to see a travel agence about the trip but how it will all turn out I just don’t know. It’s all this uncertainness that gets on my nerves, just I know something had something to look forward too, but I daren’t I had a good and hard lesson this summer wen first our trip was called off and there your trip was called off. Darling don’t you think we’ll be able to marry this summer, I don’t mind at all not to have a lot of money where we start our marriage, and I don’t mind not to be able to go out a lot and clublife and what it all is as long as I’m with you and can be with you all the time, but darling it is certain that you have a long enough holiday to be able to come here isn’t it. I enclose some photos taken the other day of me. I’m afraid they are not to good as there wasn’t any sun, one of them Chris took, funny he talk a lot about you I wonder if he really can remember you, anyway he remembers when you ran after Mette with the lobster. I don’t know if I’m very passionate or not, but I often think how wonderful in Cambridge I remember all right how it was in Gunnels kitchen, I didn’t mind a bit I rather liked it, I think we are going to have a happy marriage I’ve seen enough of unhappy ones and how I don’t want our marriage to be, just I hope I’m good enough for you, I know you are stubborn, I am too, but Darling if we try both to give after for one another, it will be all right, we don’t want to have silly quarrels, I know it might be a bit difficult in the beginning after not having seen each other for a long time but I don’t belive it’s a glorious memory we are living on, it couldn’t be, and Darling for Lords sake don’t go around still be jealous you have no reason what so ever, I haven’t even been out alone with a boy for two year, and I don’t feel like it, so for that you are just being plain silly. I’ve just got you, you and you again in my head, if you just know how many time I’ve said no to an invitation it’s not longer than yesterday I said no to go to a ball because I then had the evening free to write to you, are you soon cured for your jealosi, I’d rather stay at home busy with my hobby and to embroid pillow cases for us, though I don’T like that too much, then to go to a party with people I don’t care a bit (or a damn) about. I had a long and very nice letter from you mother yesterday ahe is always so very sweet in her letters, I’m sure I like her very much when I get to know her, by the way darling wouldn’t you give me Rezia’s adress as I couldn’t quite make out your mother writing in the adress, as I want to write to her for Christmas, that will be a good opertunity to start writing to her. Well darling I think this is about all for this time, I hope you are more pleased with me this time as I don’t like when you are annoyed with me, how I’m hoping for us to meet in two month time, it will be heaven. Please write soon again. Love from everybody here, Ulla asked me to send you special regards from her.
Lots of love, hugs and kisses from yours
forever Toots as I love
you so very much