March 6th, 1956
Copenhagen the 6th of March 1956.
My dear Maj,
Thank you very much for your letter, I had a feeling I was going to hear from you one of these days, I don’t know why. I too often think of the past and the time we had together a memory that is burned into my memories. There is a thing in your letter I don’t like and that is that you say that I hadn’t the guts to tell you we were through. As far as I know I wrote to you last, and then a long silence from you, not that I’m not used to that, but I wrote to you that if you came to Europe and to Denmark I should like to talk to you and meet you. This way we may go round for the rest of our lives with a feeling of uncertainness, wheater we have done wrong or right to ourselves. As for falling in love you say you have hardened, don’t you think I have. I told you once I had been in love and that it was done with, it is done with and I don’t think I’ll ever be able to fall really in love with anyone after I’ve known you, you had something and did something to me that no one will ever be able to do to me. Would you let me know when you are coming. It might be to much to ask of you after all this, and if you don’t want to and don’t feel like it don’t do it, but please let me know the result, if you still feel a little for me. I trust you will do it. If not I wish you all the best luck I ever can wish anyone, but believe me I still have hope.
March 23rd, 1956
Copenhagen 23rd March 56
My dearest Maj,
Thank you very much for your letter, which I was very glad to have. I’m sorry that nearly a week has passed before I’ve answered but I’ve been in bed with a very nasty cold and my old sinus trouble and running a temperature, so I could not do anything but now I’m much better. I understood from your former letter that you already had a very promising offer in Canada how come that you don’t take that are you expecting something better still. I’m sorry in a way that you are not coming because I think the moment was right that we had a good talk to sort everything out once and for all but I understand very well that you want to help your parents to move, I do hope they will be happy about it. As it is now I suppose you will carry on with your job in Shell till the autumn. I think too it will be a good idea to write to each other to make it easier when we meet, it must be a spell that we are under, and it must be love. If you don’t mind and as you wrote yourself it will be better that I tell you about the one I feel in love with but I can assure you and as I told you before it’s over and done with, but I still go out with friends but nothing serious as I can’t feel anything for anybody that I ever felt for you. I don’t know if you know anything about the strides in Denmark, but it’s rather big, but I do hope to be able to go home for Easter if the trains will be running at the station there are only 4 trains leaving for Jut land instead of the usually so you see it’s rather difficult. I’m going for Karen’s wedding, you know my girlfriend from Hersens living near to us Easter Saturday and I want to go home for the occasion. I think I’ll tell my parents when I’m home that we write to each other, to let them know, but if there won’t be the right opportunity I won’t say anything any way I’ll let you know what will happen, as I think I’ll have a better conscience if I tell them but I’ll see what happen. Don’t you think that will be right? From this month I’ll be paid better nearly 200 kr more that’s wonderful. I’ve been able to support myself without my fathers help and that is really a wonderful feeling, Darling they are playing our tune over A F W. I wish you could be here so we could be able to get things straight, do you thing we changed to much away from each other. Why is it that we had to have so much difficulty about our life and our life together, do you think there is a meaning about it, or is it that we are not to have each other or what is it. Sometimes I think I’ll never be married, but I think I was meant to be, any way time will shine, but I want to be married and have children, it must be what life is meant to be lived like, can you follow me. I hope to hear from you soon and that there is a letter waiting for me when I come back from the vacation. Please don’t write to me to Hersens as it will only start endless distractions and I don’t want to talk to much about the two of us at home before we meet and had things out between ourselves, I just want to tell them that we still write to each other as friends. All the best to you and look after yourself. Till I write again lots of love and a kiss